decisions.

"i thought you said it was easy listening to your heart. i thought you said i'd be okay, so why am i breaking apart? i don't wanna be torn."

that lyric is so true. sometimes you're at a crossroad, and no matter what road you choose, someone you care about deeply is going to get hurt. that is a hard situation. i tend to worry about what everyone else wants, not always what i want. i'm always making sure everyone else is okay before i worry about myself. that is not always a good thing to do. i'm trying to figure out a lot right now, and i've just been praying for clarity. i feel like i need to change some areas in my life, because there's more harm than good in those situations. the first and most important thing to do in situations like this are of course to pray and ask God for clarity. after that, you just need to make sure you don't make an illogical or spur the moment decision that you'll regret later. that never ends well. sometimes you just need to trust that God will ultimately have your back and whatever decision you make, he'll guide you through it. 

reflection.

as i'm preparing to start my junior year of high school, i wanted to reflect & look back on this summer and everything that took place. summer 2013 was not at all what i thought it was going to be. it had definite ups and downs, but i've grown tremendously. 3 months ago, i thought i knew who my real friends were & what my priorities were but now, i realized that those were simply my thoughts, not what God really had in store. i've had to say goodbye to people that i didn't think i ever would have to, and i've grown apart from others. but i've also made some amazing new friends, and i've gotten super close to others. God has also given me new opportunities to expand my worship leading, and that has given me such joy & new found confidence. through those opportunities, I've really been sensing that there is a very specific call on my life. i'm excited to find out more from God on what all he has in store for me. something that has really been a blessing this summer is that i've gotten to spend it with my best friend Krista. it's crazy how 3 years ago, we did not even know each other. but, she's my person. when it boils down to it, we spend every single day together and it's amazing. i've also loved interning under the communications team at my church. it's been the best thing ever. i guess the main thing that this summer has taught me is that people may walk in and out of my life, but my God will always be there to love and support me through anything.

so, here's to you, summer 2013. it's been quite a wild ride but we made it through.