finally.

she gets in the car, thinking that it'll be another day at work. there will be more copies to be made, more things to be folded, and more tasks to accomplish. but all the sudden, things change. little does she know, she has a huge surprise in store for her. she has lunch with her two best friends, and as they're driving back, they take a detour. she loves going to this park with all these pretty flowers and gorgeous scenery. they pull into the parking lot and they walk down to the park. as they are about to walk into the main part of the park, her friends stop her and tell her that there's something waiting for her. she's walk down the path and looks around. she turns around and finally...there he is. she had been wondering what he was going to do when he asked her. but, she had no idea it would be like this. they sit in a little gazebo next to each other. the sky is clear and the sun is shining bright. she looks at him and can see that he's a little nervous. she smiles and he begins to talk to her. they talk and finally, he jumps. he takes a risk. he finally tells her how he feels. she looks at him and she tells him that he feels the same. her heart races a million beats a minute and they hug. finally, the girl who thought she'd always finish last...didn't. 

well, i'm happy to tell you that the story above isn't a made-up story or beautiful idea. it's real. it happened. for the longest time, i had put what i thought i wanted before what i actually wanted. i pushed away someone that i actually needed a whole lot. after praying and praying about this, i felt God give me a clear cut path on what to do. ever since this happened this week, things have just been so good. God has just restored my joy and has given me so much peace. i'm excited for my future and what God has in store for my life. :)

genuine friends.

in life, sometimes you experience some heart break and some pain. last night, i had a hard conversation with someone very close to me. it caused a lot of heartache and pain. it was one of the hardest phone calls that i've ever had. it felt like i was trying to breathe underwater. but you know what God did in this situation? he had this all happen while 4 of the most amazing, loyal friends in the entire world were hanging out at my house. they just loved on me and spoke words of life into me. this just goes to show you how much the Father adores his kids and is always providing for us. God promises us that he will help us. Romans 15:13 says "I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust Him. then, you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit." He also says in Isaiah 46:4, "I have made you and I will carry you. I will sustain you and I will rescue you." God won't let us crash and burn. He loves us too much to let that happen. Even though my heart is fragile right now, I know I'll be okay. God's love is enough. It's truly enough. God puts people in our lives for different reasons, and last night proved that. it didn't make the pain any less hard, but it definitely helped me process it all. plus, we had an amazing night together. we played a very intense game of croquet, made skillet cookies with a partner and we could only use 1 hand each, had a crazy Wii tournament, danced outside to loud music, and laughed the whole time. thank you guys for loving me and being there no matter what :) i love you all so much. you all are such a blessing in my life.