Saturday, December 14, 2013

on my own.

Recently, I've been going through a lot of changes in my life. Relationships changing and things coming to light that I thought weren't there at all. That is both a good and bad thing. God has told me that I've entered into a season where I need to focus on myself and the specific plans He has for me. That doesn't mean that I need to become self-centered, that just means that I need to focus on Him, and what He wants me to do. It wasn't easy getting here, but I honestly feel incredibly free. It's me and my Abba, simple as that. The song I posted below is from one of my favorite songs at the moment by an amazing powerhouse named Tori Kelly. I absolutely love her song Dear No One because it perfectly describes where I'm at right now. I'm at a place now where I'm starting to get a deeper understanding of the future plans that God has for me. Not everyone in this world is going to like some things I do or choices I make, but honestly, I choose Jesus and what He thinks about me. That beats anything anyone else tries to make me believe. The people who truly love & care about me will be by my side, helping me navigate through these times of transition. I'm not saying that this is a cake walk by any means, because it isn't. There are definitely days where you end up just sitting down and crying out of nowhere. But, I know that in the future, I'm going to look back at this time and know that it was totally worth it.

Monday, December 2, 2013


hello all. I apologize for not posting for a while. every time that I would sit down to try to put a post together, nothing concrete would come out of it. these past few weeks, I've come to the realization that change is always happening. sometimes we don't think we are prepared for it, but God wouldn't throw something at us if we weren't ready for it. right now, I'm experiencing the struggle of people walking out of your life when you thought they had your back. It's not a fun situation at all. But, I can tell that God is using this situation to make me stronger. I've always been the type of person who wants to include everyone and not let anyone feel lonely. That can get tricky sometimes. Thankfully, God has given me a support system to talk to & pray with. God created us for community, but He never said it would be a walk in the park. Relationships are a two way street and require both people to work at it. You also can't only have one friend. It's possible to have a couple genuine, real best friends. It's all a very complex thing and can get very frustrating. God will lead us in the right direction and we, as His children, need to allow ourselves to follow Him, regardless of what we think is right. If I were to title these past 3 months, I would call it "in transition". I know God is leading me into a new season of rest and growth. He's showing me who I can truly rely on and trust, so when I begin entering into this new season, I will know who He wants me to have by my side. I've conquered a lot of things in my life already, and I know I'm going to conquer many more things in the future. The only way I was able to conquer it was by the supernatural strength that God has given me. I am so excited for the future God has for me. I'm going to run after it and give it all that I have.