waiting.

hey everyone. i'm sorry i haven't written in a long time. i have had a whole lot going on lately and i've hardly had any free time. things have been okay lately. my wednesdays, fridays & weekends are amazing, but it's the rest of the week that i struggle. when you have this burning passion for God and you can't hold it in, but you go to a school filled with people that are rude, dark & cynical, it's hard to even think clearly. that's been my big struggle lately. i just want summer to hurry up and get here. i want warm weather, cute clothes, freedom, interning and adventures. i tell you what, i want to just fast forward to the end of may. i don't like spring, except for spring break & easter. it's gonna be even harder this year on Father's Day. it's gonna be terrible. i also deal with loneliness at school. i don't have many friends & there's definitely no one i have any interest in, love wise. loneliness is even harder when the guy you actually really like lives a town far away, and you only see him maybe 2 or 3 times a week. it's also hard when you aren't very good in the whole flirting department. i do what i can. i pray for him every day. i pray protection over him & i pray that God blesses him immensely that day. i pray that if God wants us together, that nothing will come in the way of that. that's where the waiting comes in. a verse that has really helped me is:

"trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6

no matter what, God has amazing things in store for me. i may only be a sophomore in high school, but i feel like i've lived through so many things that an average sophomore hasn't gone through. i'm just praying for strength these next 3 months. it's gonna be really hard.